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Wednesday, February 24, 2021
Avoidance Behavior
Q. What is something important you've been avoiding? Why are you putting it off? How would you feel if you took care of it?
A. I have put off calling to schedule my mammogram. I have put it off because of Covid-19. I was hoping I might get the vaccine before I had this done. I also have been dealing with a stomach ulcer, and I can only deal with one thing at a time right now.
If I schedule the appointment and go ahead and get it taken care of, then I will have it off my mind. Maybe I could schedule it for April, and I would have my Covid shot by then. I'm in the under 65 but high risk group, so I think I'm up next.
Monday, February 22, 2021
Bent on Destruction
This box contains my journals. I kept journals from 1985 until about 2003. Then I stopped. I occasionally write something to get it off my chest, but I no longer write daily. It's a good thing, or I would have more to shred.
Yes, I am shredding these. I'm trying to clear out things so that when I pass away, there won't be so much to deal with. Ridding myself and my heirs of these journals was high on my to-do list, and this week, they are being destroyed.
I have noted that I certainly learned to write whilst writing these journals. A lot of them are from creative writing courses - nothing salvageable in them, but I certainly did a lot of writing. (The entire lot of journals, if I sat them side by side, would be about as much as a set of old-fashioned printed encyclopedias.)
Good riddance.
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What do you need today? What is one way you can give yourself some extra care today?
I need to stop thinking. My brain is on fast forward and I'm having a difficult time turning it off today. I could go read a book. That would give me something else to think about.
Who is someone you admire? Why?
I admire my mother-in-law. She has accepted the pandemic with aplomb, although I know she's much more of a people-person than I am and staying in has been difficult for her. She did a decent job of raising her son - he knows how to fold his t-shirts, for one thing (he actually folds them better than I do). She has aged gracefully and well.
How do you want to feel today? Do you feel that way? What can you do that would help you feel that way?
This seems a lot like the first question in these journal prompts. I would like to feel well. I do not feel well. I am still having stomach issues and have doctors' appointments over the next weeks. Hopefully we can get things settled down.
February Journal Prompts. Join up at Kwizgiver's.
Friday, February 19, 2021
Prompts Again
What are you proud of yourself for today? Why?
I am proud of myself today for getting dressed! I am not in my nightgown nor in my robe. I have had a shower, cleaned the toilet, made my husband's tea, washed a load of clothes, made the bed, and taken photos of the ice on the trees. Hurray for not being a total sloth and sitting in front of the computer!
Additionally, my brain is thinking about writing. This is a good thing. Yesterday I cleaned out a box of old papers and ran across several of the long pieces I had to write for college. A few of them could be reworked and maybe sent out to a journal or some other place that publishes in-depth, thoughtful articles.
So there's that. And it's just a little after 11 a.m.!
What are the most important characteristics in a friend? Do you have those qualities?
Not every friend has the same characteristics, and I wouldn't dare try to categorize what makes a person a good friend. Some people are good friends because they are loyal. Some are good friends because they're thoughtful. Some are helpful. Others are sounding boards. Some you enjoy discussing certain topics with, like books. Some are the people you call in an emergency. I hope I have some of those qualities and somebody somewhere considers me a good friend.
Wednesday, February 17, 2021
My Embarrassment
I am embarrassed to tell anyone this, but . . . I curse.
Like a sailor on a sinking boat.
My grandmother washed my mouth out with soap a few times when I was younger, and my father nearly knocked me to the ground once when I was a teenager and I said, "Fuck" in front of him, but I curse a lot.
I try to keep it in check when I'm in public or dealing with someone I don't know well, but let me have a deep conversation with a close friend, or my husband (who also curses), and there is no stopping the bad words.
My mother cursed, too, as does my father and my brother, so I come by this honestly. When one is raised hearing such words all the time, one becomes immune to any impropriety therein.
Besides, it doesn't hurt anything. Some people are offended by certain words, but the "F" word is the one I use the most. After coming across that particular word in court cases in my local county whilst doing research, I realized that once upon time, this word was not a bad word. The word dates back to 1310, where it has been found in English court manuscripts. And I can attest that in the late 1700s and early 1800s, it was used in court cases for divorce proceedings. "Flying fuck" originally meant having sex on horseback and was first used around 1800. (I found that interesting when I was looking this up.) The word was outlawed in print in England in 1875, so I guess it was a usable word up until about that time. We became more prim in our language, I suppose. It became a cuss word in its own right in the 1940s.
The last time I really cursed was on January 6 as I watched the seditionists attempting their coup at the U.S. Capitol. Then I cursed mightily, loudly, and for a long time.
February Journal Prompts. Join up at Kwizgiver's.
Tuesday, February 16, 2021
The Daily Mundane
The first thing when I get up in the morning, after taking care of necessary toiletries, is turn on my computer.
If I stay off of Facebook and Twitter, and simply read the New York Times or play my city-building video game, then this is not bad time. If I go to Facebook or Twitter, my mood can quickly turn sour, particularly if I read comments. People really are stupid and I'm afraid it's catching. I'm also afraid it will be the ruin of the country.
February Journal Prompts. Join up at Kwizgiver's.
Monday, February 15, 2021
More Prompts
13. What is something you loved doing when you were younger, but don't do anymore? Why did you stop doing it?
I used to love riding my bicycle, especially in the summer when we stayed with my grandmother in Salem. We'd whizz around the block, constantly making a loop. There was a funky little forest service station at the end of the block, and they'd planted pine trees there. We turned that into a road course, racing our bicycles around the trees and along the paths that we'd swept up so the pine needles wouldn't wreck us.
We weren't supposed to ride our bicycles across Apperson Drive, nor we were supposed to ride them beyond the "haunted" house down the lane. As we grew older, though, we were allowed to ride them all the way into the City of Salem, where we could stop in at Newberry's for a toy, go to Brooks-Byrd Pharmacy for a snow-cone, and window shop at Ridenhour Music Store. My older uncle had to be along with us, though, for those rides, and since he was four years older than the rest of us, they didn't happen very often. At that age, four years is a lifetime.
I stopped riding bicycles because I learned to drive and received my driver's license. When you live in a rural area, bicycles are limiting. Cars give you a pass all the way to hell and back.
14. How do you show others love? What do others do that make you feel loved?
I learned a lot when I read the book, The Five Love Languages, by Gary Chapman. The 5 ways to show love, according to him, are physical contact, words of affirmation, acts of service, quality time, and receiving gifts. I show love to others in all of these ways, but mostly through time, offering words of affirmation, and giving gifts. It really hurts me when people don't want to receive gifts from me, but I generally honor their request. My husband is big on physical contact and acts of service.
15. What is something other people think is fun that you would never do? Why not? What would happen if you did it?
I don't find parties fun, in general. Some parties are ok if alcohol is not involved, but there is little worse than being sober while everyone else is drunk and thinking they are hilarious when they're just idiots. Generally, I wouldn't have a good time and someone would call me a stick in the mud or some such, which is a good reason not to go to parties.
Friday, February 12, 2021
Envious? Moi?
Q. Who makes you feel envious? What do they have/what are they doing that makes you feel that way? What do you think that means?
This feels like a loaded question, but I will take a stab at it. I am envious of Melissa Etheridge because she can play the guitar like it's a part of her. Watching her hands slide up and down the neck, her fingers easily finding the frets and the notes, without even looking - ah. It's beautiful to watch someone caress a guitar like that.
It takes hours and hours of practice to know how to do that, time I did not devote to my instrument, so my envy is because I know deep down that the reason I can't play like that is because some part of me doesn't want to. But my goodness, she is a joy to watch when she performs.
I am also envious of Janet Evanovich. She writes the Stephanie Plum books. I saw a show on her, and she said she works 60 hours a week. She published and became famous because she works hard at it. I worked hard at my writing, but it was news reporting, and that does not make one rich or famous, especially when one writes for local publications and doesn't seek out better opportunities. I settled for the small potatoes and did not go looking for the meat.
Now that I have time, I am not working on long form writing. I still write articles occasionally and I write in my blog. But I can't bring myself to commit to something long.
If I examine both of these, I think it means that I want to be good at things without putting in the hard work first. I want to be a great guitar player without the practice, and I want to be writing best-selling novels without having written non-selling crap first.
Of course, the hard work must come first. I put in hard work on other things I want, so I can only assume that while I am envious of these two, the things they do are not really things I wish to accomplish, for whatever reason.
February Journal Prompts. Join up at Kwizgiver's.
Monday, February 08, 2021
Trying, Energized, and Tired
Two things I have always wanted to try are not at all related.
One is a climb to McAfee's Knob. It's on the Appalachian Trail and not far from me. It is, however, a six mile trek. I do well to make it around the grocery store. So unless I become more physically active, I don't see this happening.
The other is to have an office not in my house, a place of my very own. I took over one of the rooms that was to have been a bedroom when we had children, but since we were denied that opportunity, the rooms turned into other uses.
The small room had always been my office, because I freelanced even when I was working. I was also in school and needed a place to study.
In 1994, when I was having migraines for three days every two weeks and could not feasibly be employed, I started freelancing full time. The larger bedroom became my office. It has been my office now for 25 years. While it is easy to throw in a load of laundry, it is also a distraction.
This is particularly true now that my husband has retired and is home more. The fact that he is in the house makes me anxious after spending so much time alone here.
So I have always wanted an office of my own. A place to go and work. Logically and monetarily, it doesn't make sense, though.
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I feel most energized when I am writing on an article. This is particularly true if I know I'm breaking a story - the first to get the news out there. Tracking down leads, doing quick interviews, putting it all together, double-checking facts - it's a breathtaking undertaking. I did it well when I was doing it and I still enjoy the little I am doing. I'm not sure why I can't find this same enthusiasm for my own projects.
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I feel most tired when I am at odds with myself. This is not the happy tired of having worked in the garden, or the happy tired of having cleaned something. This is the despair kind of tired that makes one wonder why one exists in the first place. That's a very tiring question to which there seems to be no answer.
These are the February Journal Prompts. Join up at Kwizgiver's.
Friday, February 05, 2021
That Time of Day
My favorite time of day varies depending on the time of year, and what is going on.
Lately, I have treasured moments after I've just woke. I am still snug in the bed, warm, with my husband beside me. Nothing is hurting because I haven't moved. It feels safe and pleasant.
Other times I appreciate the hour are those when I speak to my friends. I enjoy our talks.
Then there are those days when the sun is slipping in and out amongst the clouds, casting shadows and a certain brilliance of light that simply begs for a photograph. I love staking out a scene and then waiting for the rays to fall in the right place, so that I can catch whatever it is I am seeking. Maybe a spider's web or a shadow that looks intriguing when the light hits a log a certain way.
This is the February 5 prompt.
Thursday, February 04, 2021
February 4 Prompt
If you had a theme song, what would it be?
Wednesday, February 03, 2021
February Prompts
I am always late on these monthly prompt things. I like to do them - they're good questions. I am borrowing the questions for February from my blogging friend Kwizgiver.
I will play catch up here, since I'm three days into the month.
1. What was the highlight of the last month?
A. Last month was a new year. Yay! I finished up most everything I needed to do for the taxes. Yay! Other than that, it was rather like 2020 - I was home most of the time because of the Covid-19 virus. The vaccines came out, but I have not yet received the shot. It may be some time before I have that opportunity.
2. What are you looking forward to this month?
A. I would like to get my vaccine shot. I hope the weather warms up and the greenish tint that heralds the arrival of spring becomes apparent.
3. What is a common misconception people have about you? What do you wish they knew?
A. I have long suspected many folks think I'm "uppity" when I'm really just introverted and shy.
Monday, September 14, 2020
Monday Madness Meme
1. You are at a party in a very bad mood. There is an obnoxious guest with a camera snapping pictures of everyone in sight. Do you allow the photographs or ask them to stop?
2. Wedding, Cufflinks, Black And White, Bow Tie, Tuxedo You are on your way to a formal affair and running late. You are the guest speaker at this event and everyone is waiting for you. A police officer pulls you over for speeding. Do you make up a wild excuse or truthfully tell him where you are going and try to talk your way out of the citation? Tell us your tall tale!
3. When you drive down memory lane for the last two years of your life and look in the rear-view mirror, do you see a happy journey or a bumpy ride?
4. Who makes you laugh when no one else can?
5. What are your superpowers?
6. What is the last thing you memorized?
7. Tell us something you once took that you wish you could give back?
8. The iPhone just gave birth to the next generation of phones. What would you name them? The i_____?
9. How much mystery should be in a relationship? Is it a good thing or not?
10. What is your weekend blogging routine?
Monday Madness Meme is a new meme. Join in if you like. You can link up here.
Friday, August 14, 2020
August Happiness Challenge Day 14
Looking around this morning for something that's made me happy. I'll go with what I hope was a decent recording of a guitar instrumental that I will post next Tuesday if it really came out okay.
Also, the above makes me happy. After 37 years, my husband is finally reading. Old people covered in blankies reading books. What more does one need?
Each day in August you are to post about something that makes *you* happy. Pretty simple. And, it doesn't even have to be every day if you don't want it to be. It's a great way to remind ourselves that there are positive things going on in our lives, our communities, and the world.
Hosted (?) by The Gal Herself
Wednesday, August 05, 2020
Forty Questions
38. What do you enjoy binge watching on Netflix? I don't have Netflix.
Sunday, May 31, 2020
The May Song Quiz
A song that:
- makes me think about life would be American Pie, by Don McLean.
- has many meanings to me would be Nowhere to Go, by Melissa Etheridge.
- has a person's name in the title would be Aubrey, by Bread.
- moves me forward would be Unwritten, by Natasha Bedingfield.
- I think everybody should listen to is Where Have All the Flowers Gone, by Peter, Paul, and Mary.
- is by a band I wish was still together is Money for Nothing, by Dire Straits
- I like by an artist no longer living is We've Only Just Begun, by the Carpenters.
- makes me want to fall in love is Killing Me Softly With His Song, by Roberta Flack
- breaks my heart is Seasons in the Sun, by Terry Jacks.
- is by an artist whose voice I love is I Will Always Love You, by Whitney Houston.
- I remember from my childhood is Coat of Many Colors, by Dolly Parton.
- reminds me of myself is All By Myself, by Eric Carmen.
- I love to sing loudly is Band on the Run, by Paul McCartney & Wings.
Friday, May 08, 2020
Song Quiz #2
A good song to drive to is Radar Love, by Golden Earring. Listen to that beat, man. How could anyone listen to this song when they're behind the wheel and not move around in the seat?
A song about drugs and alcohol would be White Rabbit, by Jefferson Airplane. One pill makes you larger, and one pill makes you small. And the ones that mother gives you don't do anything at all. Classic, simply classic. How could that be anything but a drug song?
One pill makes you larger, and one pill makes you small
And the ones that mother gives you, don't do anything at all
Go ask Alice, when she's ten feet tall
And if you go chasing rabbits, and you know you're going to fall
Tell 'em a hookah-smoking caterpillar has given you the call
And call Alice, when she was just small
When the men on the chessboard get up and tell you where to go
And you've just had some kind of mushroom, and your mind is moving low
Go ask Alice, I think she'll know
When logic and proportion have fallen sloppy dead
And the white knight is talking backwards
And the red queen's off with her head
Remember what the dormouse said
Feed your head, feed your head
Link up with Kwizgiver and her May music meme.
Wednesday, May 06, 2020
Song Quiz
So I shall do 6 in a row here and try to catch up.
A song I like with a color in it is Song Sung Blue by Neil Diamond. Actually, one of my AOL user names comes from this song.
A song I like with a number in the title is 99 Red Balloons by Nena. It's an anti-war song. Did you know that? It's about a bunch of balloons that go up and set off an alert. A pilot goes to check it out and shoots at them. The neighboring nations go berserk and "the war machine springs to life." All over 99 red balloons. It's a great allegory for the folly of war.
A song that reminds me of summertime is Black Velvet, by Alannah Myles. "Mississippi in the middle of a dry spell . . . Momma's dancin' with baby on her shoulder, the sun is sittin' like molasses in the sky." Those are great lyrics.
A song that reminds me of someone I'd rather forget is Live and Let Die, which was originally by Paul McCartney, I think. This version is by Guns & Roses.
A song that needs to be played loud is I Can't Get No Satisfaction by the Rolling Stones. The older I get, the less the words seem to apply to life, but the beat and music is as classic rock and roll as you can get. I mean, I can name that song in the first two notes.
A song that makes me want to dance is Stayin' Alive by the Bee Gees. Yes, I am a disco nerd. I can't even sit still in my chair when I hear that song.
Sunday, April 29, 2018
Birthday Doings
And the answer is: nothing much. My friends took me to lunch, one at a time. That makes the birthday last the entire month, more or less. I always enjoy time with the people I care about.
I have a birthday coming up in June, if anyone wants to make it memorable. Ha.
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Linking up with the April challenge from Kwizgiver. April 29 done!
Saturday, April 28, 2018
Interesting
That describes pretty much everything. It describes something you're telling me that I think is interesting or intriguing. It also is what I say when I think someone is telling me something that reveals stupidity. It is my non-committal response to anything I don't particularly want to give an opinion on.
Of course, if you want me to be less serious, there is my general response to potatoes.
"'Taters? What's 'taters, precious? Eh? What's 'taters?"
"You know, po-ta-toes. Boil 'em smash 'em stick 'em in a stew."
Those are lines only Lord of the Rings fans will get.
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