25 things about me

I have seen, on various blogs, lists of "things about me". With nothing particularly on my mind this morning, I thought I'd try something like that. I actually find this a scary exercise, being a rather private and reclusive sort of person. This is like standing naked in the rain in Elmwood Park.

But here goes:

Physical things (because this is easiest)

1. I have brown hair.
2. I have hazel eyes. I have been told they look like "cracked ice" and have always found poetry in that particular description.
3. I am 5' 1.5" and frequently round that up to 5' 2".
4. I am overweight but will not say how much. "A lot" about covers it.
5. I have back troubles but mostly ignore it.
6. For some reason my left foot swings out crooked when I walk, giving me a distinct gait.
7. I bite my nails. Sometimes I stop for months at a time but then start back up again for unknown reasons. I think it's a chemical absence.
8. I like my hands better as they age.
9. I wear a size 7W shoe and they are hard to find.
10. I have a huge scar on my chest from a large mole removal. I used to tell my physical education teachers I had heart surgery to get out of gym class.

Other things (not so easy)

11. I think and daydream too much.
12. I believe in a Higher Power but my concepts are not conventional.
13. Writing is my preferred method of communication.
14. I love my husband and depend on him so much it scares me.
15. I miss having the idea of a mother but I don't really miss my real mother.
16. See number 15 and substitute "father" for "mother."
17. I love chocolate. It used to give me migraines but I have found I can eat it now in moderation. I did without it for over 10 years straight and nearly had an or.gas.m the first time I had chocolate after so long without it.
18. I love strawberries but they make my side hurt so I stopped eating them.
19. I wish I could have had children.
20. I am happy I've settled into a good life without children, though.
21. One of my friends and I would like to use the insurance money we get when our husbands die (years and years from now) to travel. We had hoped to go to Egypt to see the pyramids but with the current political climate I think we're rethinking that.
22. When I was a child, I used to see a dinosaur every day on the way to school. It was really a log shaped like a dinosaur. I was disappointed when I couldn't find it again the following year. I guess I outgrew the fantasy.
23. Also as a child, I used to play with the paste you find on things stuck to the back of magazines. I'd roll it between my fingers and call it my "johnnie". I have absolutely no idea why.
24. I still call that paste a "johnnie" but I don't play with it anymore.
25. I used to think I would be somebody. But I have given up on that.