How I Am

Not that anyone's asked, really, and I don't normally write about health issues, but at the moment, I have:

1) a superficial thrombophlebitis, which is to say, a blood clot in my calf that is not a deep vein thrombosis but instead is on the outside of my leg. It hurts and aches, and there's swelling. It started February 20 and has not yet quite resolved. I can still see a remnant of the clot through the skin in my leg.

2) an impingement in my right shoulder along with a sprained acromion bone. I did this by falling off the treadmill. My physical therapist says I should be back to playing the guitar in a few weeks.

3) my normal health issues of chronic abdominal pain, ulcers, and other issues that I won't go into. 

It's also been a difficult six weeks since my father died, for reasons I won't go into now, but death has its own weight to it and each of us must bear whatever that poundage may be and in whatever way we find it best to handle. 

When friends or family pass away, there is always a change, for good or ill, and we can only navigate it the best way we know how to at the time. We may look back and wish things had gone differently, but humans move forward through life, not backwards, and all we can do is the best we can at the time with the knowledge we have at that moment. 

Most of us do the best we can. Those who like to judge may find that my best is wanting in their mind, but that's on them, if they must find fault. As for me, I deal with my own demons and let others fight their own. There are plenty to go around.